The Writing Challenge and Dilemma of not Knowing
To me the most confusing thing in order to achieve anything is knowing when to start. And the answer may seem very obvious that starting to do something is the best way to get it done. To accomplish small goals it might be the best way to go. But the problem comes when you are trying to make life decisions for longer time.
Existential Crisis:
Just like any other person in my age I am also in existential crisis and trying to solve what is the best course of action for my future. Even though I have achieved certain goals such as more or less good education and a whole lot other stuff. The choices should be easier if I consider what most of the other men in my age are doing. Even though everyone else also have to chose between a lot of option in their own way. But I do find that most people around me lives with the idea of essentialism. I don’t think it is wrong to stay content with a limited set of choices and try hard to pursue it. But as I love to study within a wide range of subjects my choices are not always just to pick between better jobs or to leave parents to go in a foreign country to live a better lifestyle.Choices become tougher when everything at once seems very appealing. And the ability to reach some goals sometimes gives misconception about time and how much can we actually accomplish at my present state.And what makes it even tougher is when you try to define your future in terms of accomplishments that does not exist.
So here comes the question of what do I want? The answer is happy life and sufficient money to sustain a that life as well as gain respect. These are the most obvious things a man can want. And simply a good job can give you all of those three . But this simple job is not something I am referring to. So the next question is to how I want to attain all of those. Happy life can be attained by finding love ,or in a job that is respected .Even though the term happy life needs better definition. As for huge amount money can be earned in a number of ways. Either being extremely malicious or extremely creative . But in most case you need to do business in order to earn money. And as to be venerated by all you can become politician or any position that commands over large amount of people (Businessman being one of them). But my life goal is to attain those three to some extent as well as to actually contribute to society. In order to achieve the type of life I want to live is to become…..wait for it…BATMAN.
Definition of Batman:
Just because batman is a comic character doesn’t mean there is no real life batman. From scientists who tries develop better things for mankind , to economists who fights for better system that allows all people to be treated equally as well as different public policy and administrative heroes are Batmans to me. (The people who actually read comics might try to scream that my analogy is not right in any sense and also there are better superheroes to describe what I want to become.But just to let you know batman is the coolest) So now the question is if I want to be academic? This option always gives me pleasure to picture myself sitting among books or in laboratory far away focusing on things that will matter for people. But at the same time the inability to not apply those theory in life doesn’t seem suitable to me.
Ideas such as social justice in order to develop lifestyle in a variety of ways are being developed in order to develop the life of people living around me. And technologies such as machine learning, block-chain can easily execute a lot of those ideas for good. Even though there have been substantial development in these sectors over the years but there is still a lot of things that can be done in better and efficient ways. The root problem is that the systems are still being developed with the idea that the developed world has somewhat perfect system. So the new ideas implemented in these regions are in most cases not perfect and they are always backdated. So in order to solve problems both academic and entrepreneurial efforts are necessary. And such entrepreneurs are to me are real Batman.
But transforming into a person whose pursuit is acquire knowledge and act accordingly is no easy task. And considering the voids in my past to establish good academic background this can turn out to be very tough . But the thing I am most concerned about is extent of my knowledge.
The lack of Knowledge:
In order to solve any problem knowledge is necessary. But when it comes to solving bigger problems the the challenge of attaining knowledge is bigger. In order to do simple task of cleaning home basic motor functions is good enough. In order to do comparatively complex work such as maintenance or design job (the one that I am doing right now)basic understanding about the subject matter is good enough to get you started. But to solve problems that can eventually result in changes for millions of people basic understanding about few topics is never good enough. But you still have to start at some point.Right? Entrepreneurial efforts are good starting point.
But first lies problem what type of effort you should put? If you aim for big world changing ideas they may often seem too unrealistic and once again as my extent of knowledge is low. Starting with small is the better way to go. But there is the fear of becoming part of toxic startup culture. Do I end up being a simple e-commerce site. Or my startup would end up as just a marketing tool and end up creating bigger problems. Even though if I do become successful in such endeavors I always have the fear that I will not be able to serve in bigger context. However this is a challenge that I will have to take in upcoming days.
Writing Challenge:
To progress towards the challenge is to gain better knowledge. To gain better knowledge better education and taking practical steps towards it is very necessary . And though I am trying to learn new things everyday. But I think knowing myself better and also to analyze how my thought process works in better organized manner while getting perspective of other people is necessary. Hence the writing challenge. This is sort of small challenge to myself to write about my perspective on different things for upcoming month. May not be directly related to my approach in solving problems. But to understand my feelings about different things in often with philosophical approach. Hope this will allow me to gain better knowledge about my values and ideals as well as to get peace of mind. And hopefully the readers will give me better insights to develop myself.
Shoummo
Diary- 21/06/2020
